People change.

A way back then, I had been taught by certain theory that we no longer can change our character when we reach some point of our age. We will be stuck. Let say the age is some 20s. In order to reach that age, we gotta make sure we have tried everything enough and found our true selves, our true identity. Some motivator suggest to copy part by part of various characters of successful people and sew them up to be a coat called character. Because when we reach that age, it is hard to change our character again, we will be stuck at our self identity forever.

Well, now on, I disagree. People change every seconds! People change by what they read, what they listen, what they do. We, the most sophisticated creations, have a true power so called will power. We can do every fuck we want as long as we believe and work hard on it, even to change ourselves, our character. For instance, you may know your friend being clumsy and shy enough five years ago. Now when you meet him or her, you might be surprised that he or she has become the famous swaggy persons with great characters and charming enough to get you have dinner with him/her.

I hate Mario Teguh.

Facebook and Instagram.

Today I just deleted my frequently used social medias, Facebook and Instagram. Basically I kinda like the idea behind Facebook that you wanna stay connected with people despite the time difference and space. I like Instagram too. I can see whatever I want to see. Instagram helped me to study abroad, too.

Well, recently, I didn’t use those things like what they should’ve been used. I used Facebook just to impress my friends, or just to get people attentions by likes and comments. Instagram too. Moreover I used Instagram to stalk some Indonesian girl who’s studying in London! How could imagine how crazy I am! And also, I’m tired about posting pictures before eat, ootd shit, and various inspirational quotes I copied from internet.

It’s just not me. I’m losing myself using those things. People nowadays use Instagram to show other people how great they are, what they eat and wear, where they travel, what fancy things they can extol. But me? I’m broke. I am broke-still-figure-and-unfinished-college kid. 

I am really pissed off. I don’t want to eat just because I have to show what I eat to people, I don’t want to travel to show I’m not miserable life, I don’t wanna wear stuffs to have somebody praise me! What I’m saying is that I have been somethings lately to get people’s attention which is not good. What if you don’t get likes or comments or attention of the person you stalk? I lose the excitement while doing something without posting the pictures or status. Why couldn’t I enjoy eating kebab or wearing beats and Manchester City jersey or going to Paris without posting them to social medias? That is ridiculous! I tell you what, people literally don’t care about what currently you are doing. Stop wasting your time to get people’s attention. Just do whatever you want to do not because doing such thing will increase your popularity or your persona, just do it because you really enjoy it, because you like it. Enjoy the moment, buddy! You don’t wanna lose your precious moments because you are busying with your camera or your smartphone, do you?

English.

I thought I could speak English. TI be honest, I couldn’t. Basically I can only talk and listen small conversation, not complicated topic, something like that. But when I was reading 100% English like a biography, it turned out that I did not understand many vocabularies there. There are missing words inside my head.

I’m rereading Steve Jobs biography right now. It is enthralling book. I will finish to read it soon. Although I gotta bring my dictionary app beside me.

F.C.

Since I was a child, I had not been paid attention to football that much. I only watch few matches in Euro Cup World Cup.

When people asked me about my favorite football club, I always said, “Real Madrid.” The reason is simple. I almost used Real Madrid on PlayStation all the time. It was almost unbeatable club on the game despite their winning in many tournaments in real life.

But, that’s it. I did not really support Real Madrid. I didn’t even know all the players except Louis Figo, Raul, Casillas, Roberto Carlos, Pepe, Modric, Ramos, and CR7. Those are the names that popped out while I’m writing this.

The reason I did not watch football much is because I thought it was wasting so much time. Come on, you could use that time to study or to do something else beside watching football. My father even asked me to not watch football and just focus on my study. Well, he is terrifying so much about my future. Even today. Although I saw him played football once. I tell you later about this.

Right now, I am a fan of Manchester City F.C. It seems strange. I confess that I knew this Football Club in 2008. I liked this club when they beated Manchester United 6 – 1. Oh man, I remembered watched this match in my friend’s room. My friend and almost his friends were United fans. Me? I just watched. I didn’t really understand this Darby. But when I saw they won and beated United, I felt somehow happy.

I remembered match when Manchester City won their first English Premier League even their first champion after 44 years with a great comeback 3-2! Could you imagine that?!

Manchester City taught me to never give up, to always have hope; that everything is possible, everything can be changed. Even for once in blue moon.

Today, I always watch all Manchester City’s entire games. Even I say no to my friend’s invitations if their time crushes with Man City’s matches. I even purchased an original Manchester City’s jersey even I’m still broke AF. I also planned to visit Etihad Stadium at the end of the year but I gotta cancel it due to visa problem. But I never lose hope. Someday I will make it to Manchester.

Borrowing money.

If you want to know someone is your friend or not, try to borrow some money from them. Not because you need money, just borrow couple of dollars. And then see his/her responds. Somehow you will see how they treat yourself.

I tested this sometimes. Some people lend me some money right away, some people lend me money but ask me when I will give it back, some people just say no or tell me he/she has no money, and some people even laughat me while I’m asking to borrow.

It doesn’t mean the ones who lend you some money are the truly good ones. But, the ones who don’t lend you might be the good ones too. You will see. Even if he/she has no money to lend you some, he/she will help you to find a way.

You should try if you want to know your truly friends.